Is it weird to say I feel new? I am far from new, I mean, I’m 30 for heaven’s sake!
I have been a mom for 12 1/2 years, and I still find myself in total awe of my daughter, more and more lately as she is growing in to a beautiful, smart, very funny and sarcastic young woman. It’s like a new start lately, and I just can’t get enough. She is going to a Winter Formal dance this year at her school, and she looks so grown up and so gorgeous in her dress! I can’t believe how grown up she is.
I also have found myself falling in love with my husband all over again. We have been together for a little over a year, and married for only 4 1/2 months. Is it too soon to fall in love again? I am new at this, but I absolutely love it! It’s almost like, I have found a different love for him? If that makes sense at all…. Before, I loved him for the kind, caring, God loving, providing man that he is. And he still is all of those things. I just see it a little different now. It is so much deeper than ever. He will give anything in the whole world to make sure Makenna and I are taken care of, and happy as we can be. Worldly possessions seem to mean nothing to him anymore, as long as we are together and happy. He wants our emotional being as well as physical to be in the best state it can be. He even lets me go on these crazes and goes along with them 🙂 Right now we are giving the “Clean Eating” thing a shot. He is fully on board. I think I could ask for a circus in the backyard and he would make it happen. I really couldn’t ask for anyone better to be by my side for the rest of my life! For the first few months of our marriage, I think I was just in shock that I was actually married… Weird? Being married is something I thought would never happen. EVER. And then Andy came along, and it has been so stinking easy ever since. And what I mean by easy is, emotionally easy. I knew he was the one after our first few conversations in the store I worked at. Then we dates, got engaged, planned a wedding, then skipped it all and eloped! So, maybe you can understand that when I say that I was in shock, it isn’t a bad thing. I feel like I can finally breathe, and I can’t get enough of it!
We have been having the “expanding the family” discussion lately. I have been the one wanting to expand soon, I mean, I am 30 already! But more recently part of me wants to be a little selfish and just enjoy my husband and daughter for a while longer. We will see! 😉